A Mommy Moment

Being a Mommy is tough...

But I honestly wouldn't trade my life right now for anything in the world. I mean, just look at that face...

Maddie was just a little sick this weekend. Nothing breaks my heart so much as a sick baby. After she had thrown up the upteenth time, I just rocked her until she fell asleep in my arms. As I sat there holding that precious little bundle in my arms - though she didn't smell very fresh at the moment - I was overcome once again with nothing but pure love for this baby. I sat there with my numb arm, afraid to move and disrupt her respite from an achy tummy, and just stared at that tiny, peaceful face for a long time.

I find myself in awe that I can love both of my children so equally and so strongly. But - and I think other moms are the only ones who can get this - I am often a little frightened at the intensity of my feelings for these little people.

Being a Mom has taught me so many things - selflessness, forgiveness, patience, loooong- suffering.... But one of the most amazing things I have learned as a mother has been love. Words don't describe how deep or how wide my love for my children is. And it is only a drop in a bucket compared to the love God has for His children. Can you even imagine? When we are our dirtiest, stinkiest, and sickest, God wants nothing less than to hold us in His arms and never let go.

Maddie's little bout with an upset tummy had to run its course - she had to get that yucky stuff out of there before she could be well - but thankfully, she is back to her normal, bubbly baby self. You know, sometimes we go through things that God chooses to allow to "run their course" because He knows that is what is best for us. In the end, He knows, we'll be the better for it and things that we needed to learn or deal with will come out. But don't you ever doubt that He is holding you through the whole thing. Would you abandon your child when they were sick and needed you most?

Having children will teach you the darndest things.